Commitment to a £ifetime.

Let the Peace take place;

2011-11-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

Counting few more days, JKJH and me will be going to BATAM and definitely together with his parents.

I'm so looking forward for that. Just few more days! Yay!

Men Active+ Series have release! Do look forward for it man!! Come come!

A Great & Tiring Day

2011-11-20T20:42:00.002+08:00

It's 19.11.11, headed down to Sentosa to have a sight of Underwater World and Dolphins Lagoon! Yay!

Journey there was funny and freaking hot under the sun! Should have bring our shades along!

Aftermath, down to Beach road to have steamboat with my family together with JKJH and next guess what?! We went to pub to drink and sing. HAHAHA! My mum vomitted after the fun. HEHEHE.

To Vivo city next to watch Tower Heist and I got to sleep in the middle of show and woke up suddenly. 2nd time man. Eyes back to screen again. Okays. Starting is quite boring but behind not bad. I rated 3/5. OPPSY!

Home-d next and got super tired. Bathe-d and boom! And slept... ... ...

I know you are & have tried to give me all that you can gave and I received it.

I know you're tired, but you are still spending all the time you have just for me.

I appreciated and thank you for doing a lot for me and tolerating all the nuisance I gave too.

You're the one that have guide and lead me forward to anything and always wanted me to be good just for my own.

Although, times and times I tried to be stubborn just want things to be on my way and you nagged at me, telling me things for my own good but you still gave way to me.

You're the one that I would cherish a lot and never wanting you to look back and turn away.

I would want you to just have me in your mind, always.

ILY -- JKJH

Never have I thought of;

2011-11-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

Having my Practical during noon and headed to Bishan for my slimming appointment! HAHA!

Well, after my appointment end it was about 6PM and I wanted to go Bugis to get my working shoe but no one is free to go with me and I went myself.

Bestie asked me to go over to her place to eat and I went over. Staying there till about 12 am plus and we left as Zhi Kwang says that his friend coming over for something. So we all went down and waited. Waited too long and went over to Punggol dam wait. Waited again till mosquitoes biting and we walked in.

Till a corner, I saw candles. I was saying out that "Wa who put candles sia" My mind was thinking that is so lame to put candles!

But I didn't realize that I saw someone like Zhi Long and it's really him and I saw JKJH! OH! I thought he was on course for a few days and didn't expect him to be there!

And they successfully make me fall into their trap without anything doubting! Wow~! I can't imagine it before too!

But still, a million thanks to their effort done for me. I love it a lot!!!

I love you too Bestie! For making the trip to there to give me that surprise too!

I'll always remember it! And wish you speedy recover too!

Life it's like a Coin;

2011-11-16T14:34:00.002+08:00

Hi Readers,

It's my brother, BEH YUBI 21st Birthday!

I wanna wish you,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO YOU

DO EVERYTHING WELL IN YOUR JOB

GEt STABLED DOWN WITH LIFE!!

YAY!!!

Counting down 3 more days to Saturday and it's my Birthday.

Unfortunately, JKHJ have to be on course for 5 days so he's unable to accompany me on the actual days. It's alright. I'll still be happy to receive a sweet text from him=)

Hopefully there would be a surprise for me. Hees~!

Anyway I would like God to grant one of my 3 wish is:

My bestie will get fully recovered on her birthday if not before her ROM Day. I want her to be the prettiest brides of all. God, please grant this wish for me. I will be thankful to you.

I'm heading back home today, so that my I could see my new dog at home and after tonight, will be heading back to Hougang as Friday having Practical and have an appointment at Bishan.

Somehow, I tried making myself to be as busy as I can so as to let the day pass and I wouldn't have to wait patiently anymore for him to be back.

Bon Voyage, My Dearest ...

**Happiness is not a station for you to be at, is the manner for traveling**

Revive-d!

2011-11-15T16:42:00.006+08:00

I'm gonna let my blog R-E-V-I-V-E-D!

It's dead for bout months!

Months by Months and many happened and just a eye blinked that my blog have been dead for months too.

Well, my bestie is getting married soon but unfortunately she got a accident. Whole family is fine especially the baby in her stomach. Both are so strong. But still, I'm so heart pain to see her face like that. But I will still be waiting for her to be the prettiest mummy and the prettiest brides on her BIG DAY!

Girl I'm supporting you at the back and you must remember to be strong and recover fully okays! Besties all the way!

Uploaded photos are during the night after the early closure of shop and headed down to Suntec City to have Company Dinner. Bringing in some photos to keep it revived. Yea~

Come back more often now to read it. HEHEHEHE!

New

2011-06-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hihi, I'm back.

Been dealing with my resignation problem with my employer as they wanted to hold me back by saying I have bond. Check with M.O.M and they says a advise to me by serving 1 month notice and go. So after all settleing with my employer and the conclusion is to serve 1 month notice and go.

Just got my Mini Laptop yesterday @ $600 and currently using it. Haha! After a few years I have make a decision and get my laptop straight without anymore considering. As I have been considering for so long. Been years!

Off tomorrow and didn't intend to go anywhere and stay at home to do my lappy. Yay!

Good rest tmr!

Anyway I love you Dearest.

Wrinkles takes 10 years to Form.

2011-06-05T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone! I'm back here on posting.

Been stressing up with my work stuff and kind of have many white hairs that is growing from the inside and that is where my friend tells me and I found out! =( Really sad about it.

Alright.

Went Malaysia on 31st May with Dearest and friends in the early morning. Went down to the Racing Track at M'Sia and to Kota Tingi for waterfall! Play-ed around the water with them and to somewhere to have seafood. Well, not enough ringgit and eat abit save with Dearest. Aftermath, went to wash shop to have their bike wash and we're Back to Singapore/ Home at around 12am! Haas!

Took next day off and finally have a good rest with dearest and watch MioTV movie with him at his house. Had dinner together with my parents at Tiong Bahru Rajah Inn Steamboat and after eating all, it cost me 70 over dollars! Heartbreak, but worth it! =DD Back to Dearest house and slept=)

Been working and don't intend to stay here long as well as not signing the Letter of Appointment with 9 months bonds. Sorry! I've decided.

Let times goes by and I will see what will happen and that is where I start to think again!

=( =)

In Life & In Loves;

2011-05-14T13:43:00.003+08:00

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

Love is to sacrifices to someone you are in love with,

want nothing in return and willingness to have them happily in love with you.

If I know what is love,

I can overcome all ups and downs even when things had comes to an end.

And, Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,

but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

If you were to ask me choose my life or you, I'll choose my life.

But please don't walk away.. As you're part of my life.

Great working days

2011-05-14T13:42:00.000+08:00

It's my 10th day working today!

the best

2011-05-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

It's my 8th day working today and I gotta work for another 3 more days and I can OFF! Currently is so messy over here. I don't even know my schedule! What man! Anyway, I will just continue to work as see what's gona happen.

Alright, today is KahHao's birthday and I hereby wishes him all the best and good luck in whatever he's going to do!

*Sheng Ri Kuai Le*

Back to work now. Bye:))))

Dead Beat!

2011-05-10T21:20:00.005+08:00

Been so shagg out over the past few days. Due to lacking of sleeping and gotta get myself up to work. I'm freakinggg EXHAUSTED!

Today is my sixth day working and guess what?! Tmr gona get to work too!

Got a call from Lady Boss and know what? She ask me if possible to break down my off by splitting it into half. Like I'm working 2 days but half day. I was like what?? NO!!

Super dead beat now! Doesn't even have any time to watch my MobTv anymore! Even had no time to wash all my pants! I wanna have off day to do all my laundry as well as spring cleaning!

24hrs per day is freaking not enough thou! I wanna have unlimited hrs so that I could finish up all my stuffs!

HELP ME!

='((

being ..

2011-05-09T15:06:00.002+08:00

I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts and loves.

I want you to know.

2011-05-07T12:45:00.004+08:00

Happy 8th Monthsary to you for yesterday!!

*You questioned me again and again and left me with no choice

to dropped tears and walked away.

I'm so sorry that I'd left you behind alone when even you shouted my name.

Million tears dropped and really afraid of seeing you again.

I know you're the one that I choose, I love and I'm in love with,

so I walk-ed down and searching for you.

Thanks for the hug you gave me once you found me.

Those 3 things you mentioned and want me to promised,

I will promised and do it.

Thanks for knowing me that well and didn't leave.

I love you...

A Fabulous outing with Everyone!

2011-04-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

23/4/11

- Work & Pulau Ubin with Everyone to look for Dearest and Fishing till early morning.

24/4/11

- Didn't went to work. Took leave.

- Went to Kallang Leisure for Ice Skating!

Its my first time! It's so fun as Dearest also first time. HAHA! We're really laughing thru from deep heart!

It's the first time that I can feel I'm really really happy with Dearest. I couldn't describe how much happy, how much we laughter we got. It's difficult to get those things in every relationship and/or everyday.

I love you, Johnny.

To people that is useless ""

2011-04-22T21:27:00.003+08:00

If I have the ability, I would stay out rather than staying in the room with you and your rubbish. With clothes, pants, undergarment, towels, make ups, wires all over the room. Even all that is also lying on my bed too. How can I sleep with such people like that?

So untidy and messed. Let's see if she can get a boyfriend that can tolerate her or just see if she can get married in future. All I do, is I will keep quiet and tolerate her nuisance.

Its her 21st this year, and no setting of her goals or even stable herself. Seems so reckless please. She is still hanging in her 16th I guess.

A girl that can't even behave in a tidiness. How can she be in future? Having such nuisance attitude. Speaking all useless words. Giving people all faithless words.

All I can say, I will give on up on such people like this.

Thanks anyway:)

Enhance...

2011-04-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

It's 21st today.

- Passed my BTT.

- Celebrated Birthday with Dearest.

- & Currently back on work.

Looking forward to 24th to have a outing with Everyone.

Everyone is back to united again.

Dearest sold away his R6 and have no bike for a period. And now he got himself another wife.

LOL-.- His Fraser.

Ending work soon for another 45 minutes. Waking up early tomorrow for my passport renewal.

Extremely Exhausted!!

& I got it a pass for it.

2011-04-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

Currently blogging in shop.

Passed my Basic theory with a mistake of 1. 49/50. Cool~!

Final theory the earliest would be in June. But will be having my Theory Trial Practice before my Final Test. Hees. Gonna study hard!

2 more days, MrKoh Birthday! Muacks!!

Basically...

2011-04-14T12:29:00.003+08:00

It's my 8th day working today and finally off tomorrow.

It's my Basic Theory Test tomorrow at the same time. Hopefully I will pass. Will be reading the book thru out my night. LOL!

I wanna prove to MrKoh that I can do it. Hees!

Another 5 more days and is MrKoh birthday. Hees. Hope he will be happy spending time with me! Yea~!

Love MrKohJunHui!!

Innocence.

2011-04-07T10:34:00.002+08:00

7th Monthsary with Dearest yesterday!

Though he's working but afterall, Dearest brought his family and me to Punggol Marina for Sakura. Had a delicious dinner last night. Headed to Punggol End with his family to relax and back home.

Bathe-d and tv on next!

MobTv with Dearest till around 1am plus and headed to bed.

Hees!

Thanks Dearest.

Love Die You!

Hehe...

As I've fall in love with you ... ...

2011-03-31T12:31:00.006+08:00

Been so busy lately. Spending time on workas well as with Dearest together. Currently I've changed my job. No longer in Harnn & Thann. =)) Anyway, all I can say is that having lesser outing with Dearest due to schedule not different. Sigh. But hopefully we can spend a great time when we both are off. 7th Monthsary is coming! Yea~! &&& Dearest birthday is coming too!! 19th April!! Surprise for him? Yes!! Thinking.... Alright! Some photos have been uploaded by me. Anyway dude! Please kindly click on my ads. You click I love! Hees! Quick Quick! Post agn soon when I'm real free. See ya!

2011-03-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

2011-03-05T18:43:00.001+08:00

2011-03-05T18:37:00.001+08:00

Sixth Monthsary with Johnny Koh!

2011-03-05T16:32:00.001+08:00

Hees! Tomorrow is our Sixth monthsary being together! Feel damn happy!

Had a chat with you dearest last night and I really understand what you have said already. You can see how I am now compared to the past. I'm so happy and proud to be your girlfriend after asking you questions last night! I'm really proud to be your girlf! So you should be happy to have me also! Haha! Love you la!

You're my greatest that is priceless love! I won't let you slipped thru because I know what I want! That's what you taught me! You taught me many many things and there's still a lot for me to learn.

I promised to get Th license fast. Promised not to make you upset anymore. Promised to get a better job. Promised to be yours!

Whatever I have promised above I'll always rmb! Just because I want you! I know what you like and don't like. So like you have told me, whatever I done, must know what I'm doing! I will accept the unfair of you when being with you! Because I know what it is behind!

You're mine! Johnny Koh Jun Hui!

Love you deep deep and love die you ! Hehe!

Dearest birthday coming le! Think think think ... ... ...

Hees! Tomorrow is our Sixth monthsary being together! Feel damn happy! Had a chat with you dearest last night and I really understand what you have said already. You can see how I am now compared to the past. I'm so happy and proud to be your girlfriend after asking you questions last night! I'm really proud to be your girlf! So you should be happy to have me also! Haha! Love you la! You're my greatest that is priceless love! I won't let you slipped thru because I know what I want! That's what you taught me! You taught me many many things and there's still a lot for me to learn. I promised to get Th license fast. Promised not to make you upset anymore. Promised to get a better job. Promised to be yours! Whatever I have promised above I'll always rmb! Just because I want you! I know what you like and don't like. So like you have told me, whatever I done, must know what I'm doing! I will accept the unfair of you when being with you! Because I know what it is behind! You're mine! Johnny Koh Jun Hui! Love you deep deep and love die you ! Hehe! Dearest birthday coming le! Think think think ... ... ...,Nothing Gona change my love for you!

Nights out!

2011-02-18T23:11:00.007+08:00

Photos uploaded!

-Valantine's present by Dearest and me!
-Had night out with Dearest and had their photo shooting of bikes.

When love is lost;

2011-02-08T18:25:00.002+08:00

Do not bow your head in sadness when love is lost, instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal.

A final comfort that is small but not cold. The heart is the only broken instrument that works.

I never know until that moment how bad it could Hurt to lose sonething you really had.

If we must part forever, give me but kind words to think upon, and please myself with, while my heart breaking.

With what a deep devotedness of woe, I kept thy absence. Thinking thee, still thee, till thought grew pain, and memory lik a drop that night and day. Falls cold and ceaseless, wore my heart away.

Mixiu Mixiu!

许俊晖！

Happy Go Lucky !

2011-02-07T13:51:00.005+08:00

Alright, I'm backkk!

Firstly wanna wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year! Collect quite a number of red packets this year. What about you guys?! Haha.
It seems like the first spending my CNY with a boyfriend with me. Wow! So happy being with him.

New Year Eve

Had my facial done at spa in the noon and down to bugis. Did my shopping alone first while waiting for them to reach. Walked about almost 2 hrs. Charles had successfully fetched my sister and down to bugis. Meanwhile, dearest reached too. So met them up Tgt and do my sister shopping. Dearest can't stayed too long as he had his reunion dinner early so he went off first and coming up to my house to meet ne again.

Charles, sister and me did my sister shopping and he sent my sister home next as Charles gotta go for his reunion dinner too. While I took bus home as dearest went off already.

Alright. My turn to had my family dinner together! This year didn't went over to grandma place for dinner as her leg in pain so didn't cooked. So relatives and us stayed at home for our dinner ba, I guess?

Dearest reached and he ate abit of food. Charles reached and everyone headed to Chun Dao He Pan! There is my Dad and Mum, Charles and my Sister and Dearest and me! Haha! Everyone is on bike. LOL!

Xiao hao joined next. Awhile later and back home!

CNY Day 1

Cab-ed down to father side of grandma house and waited to get red packets la! Haha. Dearest came and fetch me to marina barage with his group of Friends and fly kite. Dearest kite fly high till th end can't even see it! Back to dearest home. And sweet sweet dream!

CNY Day 2

To my mother side of grandma house today. Chit chatted with aunties and back home get rest and prepare. Waited for dearest to come over to bai nian with my mum and there we went to his father side grandma houSe. So embarrassing alright! Haha. Had dinner and headed to his godmother house. Ate abit and there th Johnny banker start.

Everything end and nowhere else to go. Went to he pan and played top one with dearest! Quite ex for th game and it's 360 degree turning. It's so much scary till I scream non stop and that idiot is lik laughing and laughing. Nb! Hahaz. Love you la! Met up with Charles at my house and they chill till in the early next morning. Wake Charles up and ask him drive home first as he would be working. And let baby Slp till late morning. Baby drive me and my mum to cresent for breakfast and back home. We both fall asleep as we were really really very tired. Woke up about 5 in th evening, got prepared. Off we went to sentosa and waited for Charles to end work. While waiting we went jalan jalan and bought popcorn. Heehee!

Bought pizza hut home to makan. Yea! Finally alright! Haha. After dinner waited for boon siong and his gf to come and started our gambling. Headed to baby house next.

CNY Day 3

Firstly, HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY TO JOHNNY KOH!!

Woke up about 4 in th late noon and went over to dearest father side of grandma house for dinner and down to Zhi Kwang her for poker! Dearest got out 2 bucks only and he won $170++. That's alot! Went home about 5 in th early morning and slept at 6pm plus. An hour half, woke baby up as he gotta work already. And back to my sweet dream!

Headed to bugis with jiayan and done my precious puzzle and back home about 10pm plus. Hehe.

LOVE JOHNNYKOHJUNHUI !!!! Looking forward to Thursday!! Universal studio everyone!!! ESP with my idiot boy!! JohnnyKoh!
MUACKs!

It's my best day when I'm with my baby KOH!

2011-01-18T09:50:00.004+08:00

Been 1 week not meeting with Dearest due to some conflicts in between. But got to meet up on the saturday night. Dearest brought me to jalan besar for zhu zha tang. Zhi Kwang and Cecilia, Zhi long and Joanne, Charles and one more guy of their friend is there. Reached and everyone have ate only dearest.

After eating to kallang river for chilling. This guy of their friend have a similar character and pattern with someone I know. I was really shock at first I thought is someone that I know but really lucky that I do not know. Whoosh~ make me had a jump. Lol. Back home next and dearest was asking me if I want to tag along with him to his work place OBS at Pulau Ubin. Because he gona have his duty on th next day so I say ok and I were asked to packed my shirt But I fall asleep and Dearest packed for me. Hehe. Thanks!

Woke up in the early morning and got prepared. Headed to a coffeeshop to get some breakfast and headed to punggol jetty. Boat is here and guess what?! Dearest is the one who drive it. I was so surprise la! Haha. To OBS and ate our breakfast and baby brought me to explore everywhere.

And th whole day dearest lik a driver, drive th boat in and out to fetch and send Ppl. Im always beside him and enjoy th wind. Haha. As if we are in our own yacht lik that. But it seems really lik! Time is around evening baby brought me to his daddy fish farm and there's alot of fishes and a black big dog! Haha! I kept disturbing th dog. Bii said th dog is blocked by something is because it bite and bark. So it's blocked! Around 7 plus as the sky is getting dark when back to OBS and have a bath out before going out w Bii to fetch a guest come in. And that's th last destination already.

Had our dinner in room and watched Bii favorite show the "ai". After dinner followed Bii to th store as he's going to tidy th things in there so o followed but watching my show in my phone while he's tidying up tb thing. Hees.

Once everything is done, Bii had his bath in th toilet and that's the day!

Woke up ard 6.30 am in th morning and back to punggol jetty and took bus bii home alone. While dear have to fetch his colleagues all in and out again. So waited for him at home and around 8 plus he's back! Hees. And there we Gona have our sweet dream and good sleep in the room. Exhausting and exciting day with baby!

Monday, didn't went anywhere but staying at Bii home helped him out abit of his painting of doors! And went pasam malam in th night and home for television and sleep!

Currently having breakfast before work! See ya!

Never endless

2011-01-12T13:30:00.002+08:00

You didn't contact me yesterday. And its not th first time you're doing so.

I do not wish to play any mind game with you as I do not have any time to play. I'm tired so as you. So I would let you suit yourself instead me going crazy anymore. I do not want history of mine to repeat. Going crazy for you and everything. I don't want it anymore!

I'm going out right now. I'll give myself till tonight. That's it.

Takecare.

I'm so in love with my idiot baby boy!

2010-12-28T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hi I'm back here!

Past three days were being with dearest th whole day. Was working on Christmas day but went over to his place to stay over for 3 days till today. Supposingly, watched movie at cinema but ended up didn't and watched television at home.

Had gathering lunched steamboat with dearest relatives over at his aunty place. Headed to Parco to look for all my workmates. Chit chatted. Went home together for dinner. Watched 9pm show on channel U. Went over to geylang with dearest as well as my parents to have supper.

Aftermath, over to same place meet up with his friends and all. Yishun dam next and back to 2nd home.

The end!

You're the only one I can see.

2010-12-19T12:51:00.004+08:00

Hey I'm back on posting. Past few days was really lazy and tired.

Alright basically spending my time with Dearest and friends. Dearest brought me to Singapore flyer and last night we went to escape theme park for free! Played many games and finally I get to sit gold cart. I wasnt dare to play in the past as I'm afraid of it due to my phobia in th past when I was small. But finally Dearest taught me and bring me along. Sat pirates ship and my heart almost burst out! Hehe! Wet and wild and our body are all wet. Next headed to pasir ris for dinner And dined in at Just Acia! Baby was funny as he didn't know what he want to eat and he looked at th menu for about 10 to 15 minutes and I was busy capturing him. Haha!

Went shopping and bought a alibaba pants. Baby said nice so wear it and I bought him a necklace that beach boy also would wear it! I like it so much duh~

Headed to east coast next and had chit chat with Dearest over e ocean. Cockroache came next and spoil mood. To jalan beast next to look for Zhilong. As he's having dinner there. Reached and chit chat with them. They were saying about their past and it's funny. Hehe.

But after all, one thing is I have neglected my boy. I have make him disappointed on me twice. Now it's time for me to wake up and really move on. I do not wish to stay on anymore. Whatever I do is so stupid and making a fuss out that had not a point at all.

A great apology to my boy, JohnnyKoh!

Best I Ever Had

2010-11-28T11:55:00.005+08:00

Currenty working @ vivo right now.

26 Nov

Got to meet Dearest on Friday night! I knocked off and went home straight. Were doing my house hold things at th living room. Got a call from Dearest asking if do I want to eat? Told him no and he didnt let me know that he's coming over and just appeared outside. Haha! Packed and got bathe and stuff!

Finally, Dearest stayed over my place and watched shutter with me together! I'm delighted! Thanks Baby for willing to stayed over when I know you don't really like. Hehe! Muacks!

Went spize to eat after watching it as we both are hungry! Back home and we dozed off!

27 Nov

Woke up and got prepared. Ate lunch that dad cooked and off we headed to Expo IT fair for laptops!

Walked one big round and went to look for Zhilong chit chat. Didn't know ah chao is there. Shocked. Lol. Alright back inside and look for my laptops with broadband under M1. Aftermath, didn't sign up as Whad Zhilong says make sense that I have an iPhone Whad for I need a broadband? I can just get a netbook and connect with my iPhone for Internet! Isn't that so make sense?!

Left and to Dearest uncle shop to have laksa. To tampines to helped his mum to signed a M1 line. Queued for more than a hour my dear. Everything done. Back to Dearest place and have a rest. After resting, it's time to meet Zhilong at jalan beast as he's waiting at there for a long time.

Reached and Charles reached too. Finally I'm back home and I can get to sleep! I'm really really tired for th day!

Anyway before I end my post I wana say it out loud that I LOVE JOHNNY KOH!

Hopefully

2010-11-26T09:44:00.004+08:00

I'm on my way to work now. Woke up late this morning. Late by half an hour.
Do not know why I'm really really tired when I turned in early in th night.

Today is th fifth day never get to meet up. Sigh. I really really miss you alot do you know my dear boy? I wana have hugs of yours from you!
Hope what I asked you last night you are willing to do it. Because this would be last time I'm asking you for it. First 2 times you didn't managed to do it. Hope tonight it will if not I'm never gona ask again le.

I'm gettin crazy over you soon!

?????: Everybody will get their karma back. I tried but it fail. I tried again and I fail again. I'm not giving up cause he's the one.

Mood-less

2010-11-22T19:50:00.002+08:00

I need someone to talk now can I? I wanna go to a beach-side and to be alone can I?

Doesn't have any mood to talk and eat. Feels lik sleeping and doesn't have to wake up. I'm restless. I miss you too.
I doesn't know what to do now. Wayless!

I doesnt dare to step forward. I need your help. Do you know? But I'm super afraid of you. Sometimes it really make mr feels lik avoiding you. But I know I can't because I love you so...

Didn't rang you up the whole day today. Didn't even dare. You're busy and I do not want to hear any bye from you:( also nv text much w you because I'm afraid you see you didn't reply as you're busy. I know you're busy that's why didn't text nor ring you up. Just want to wait till you free and you'll text me. But it doesn't seems to be lik this. Sigh.

This might be the karma I had back. I deserve it!

JohnnyKoh I'm so sorry about it.

Takecares alright.love you lots!

The night is still young. {Edited}

2010-11-21T11:32:00.024+08:00

I'm 18 this year!

Wishes my Happy Belated Birthday!

18 Nov -

Supposingly I had an appointment over at salon to make my hair but BBQ things are still not ready so decided not going for my appointment and help Dearest! So woke up in the early morning got bathed and prepared. Trained over to Dearest place at Hougang. Meanwhile, gave him calls to wake him up if not there's no door for me to be in! Started my dialing when I leave my place till all my way to his place. A total of 86 missed calls from me. Can you believe?! And finally he's up!

Woke him up and brought dearest to nearest polyclinic for doctor as he had headache for days and is not recovering after having normal panadols. And he had to go for his second round injection of some things. Queued up and waited for 45 minutes to an hour. His turn reached and he went in. What's next?! He came out within 5 minutes! Th doctor were telling him that he needs to see for a doctor regarding for th headache he had so that th doctor is safe to inject him! Wt.Hell! We waited for so long and th results is this! Dearest was so hot man!

Well, we went for a doctor next. There's no other choice. Dearest needs medicine and check ups! Had breakfast first and back to queue waiting. Number called, we went in. Doctor gave him panadols that have extra strong medical in it. Alright, injection will have to delayed and we left to Hougang mall.

Bought plates and etc and headed back home. Brought things down for cab over to Bedok to borrow van from his uncle. Off we left to Bedok Sheng Siong for food! Bought lots of things and is so fun to be with Dearest! Haha!

Back to his uncle shop to get everything and it's time to check in!!

Checked in and start preparing things. Dearest was busying marinating and wrapping food while I'm bit crazy do not know what I'm doing. Having lotsa fun with him. Hehe!

Mum & Dad came. Baobei cooked some food for them. Weiwei came first and follow up by Boon Xiong and his girlf. After eating, my parents left home. Chilling, playing and chit chatting. Zhilong and Charles came next with martell. Wt.hell!

Baobei receive a call from his uncle and he got to hand over th van back to his uncle so he left. Suddenly he pop up a cake and entered from th back door. But so sad that I was th first to saw it! Haha! No surprise! But I'm still so shocked that I didn't know there's cake to sing along! Thanks Dear And his friend! Know what?! He told me he found the cake at a place and he faster take and come back. Walau lo! Haha. Muacks!

Sing along, make a wish and blow candle! Baby is singing Chinese version alone just for me. So touch. Really touch! After blowing candle, Zhilong dip cake on me! And make me drink one shot of purely martell down when I had never ever done that as I'm a weak drinker! I feel so gosh but still managed to drink it. Started feeling bit hot in my stomach. He said that was the first cup and there's still 17 more cups to go! Xiao hao and his girlf came next. So sad that they didn't managed to take picture together when blowing candle but still left cakes for them. There's still another 18 cups to go for Xiao hao too. As well as Boon Xiong and his girlf one and Charles! Can't managed to drink so much so Weiwei helped me. Super kit! Played around with cakes. Baby bought me the jumper got dirty too:( Haha! But managed to dip cakes on baby, Zhilong and Weiwei. Hehe.

So sorry girl. I left with no choice to make you because I got chased by Zhilong and that's the condition that he want me to do so that he can let me off. So sorry man!

Ate cakes and chill. Drink and drink. Cant make it anymore. Went toilet to puke and room next. Went to slept and suddenly Baobei sat in front me and wake me up! Haha. Charles and Xiao hao wake us up too. Cannot make it again. Went to toilet to puke for second round and I'm ok with it. No more drinking anymore and I stopped them! Cannot make it! Bet cards and lost 25 bucks to Baobei. So sad. Haha! Anyway I really feel so much joy and happy for the whole night!

19 Nov -

Checked out the next morning and headed to Baobei uncle shop to return things while Zhilong wanted to change his car battery. Whampoa for lunched and back to Baobei home to bathe and stuff. Went to sentosa partly of resot world. Had ma you chic and don know where. Headed home next. Rest and slept.

Woke up and down to Baobei friend there, Emily, together with Charles to start up her Boyf car. Once done, to yishun dam chill with Mac that she treated. Off we go home!! Feel so fun with Baobei! I'm deeply in love with you now dear!!

Baby,
Thanks for the watch you bought for me as my birthday present. Thanks alot! I love you lots! Muacks!

Also, thanks to:

Tan Kah Hao, Lee Hong Jun, Chia Hao, Shawn Teng, Chris Wong, Serene Pan, Sabrina Pan, Nick Loh, Jasmine Lim, Priscilla Tham, Ng Jia Jie, Leow Yih Jiun, Ang Ke Wei, Xiao Hao, Mavilyn, Zh iLong, Charles, Wei Wei, Elaine, Jina, Lina, Sylvester Ang and Starie!

Last but not least :

JOHNNY KOH JUN HUI !!

Thanks for everything you did just for me!

20 Nov -

Stayed over at Baobei place the whole day till midnight to rest and had breakfast at 4 am in the middle night. Homed next!

Out of randomly, my house appeared to have a few new furniture man. So shock! Anyway miss baby alot. Currently working but smoking with Bryan. Awaiting for baby to wake up!

你是我要找的。爱你许俊晖 !

I found you!

2010-11-18T11:34:00.002+08:00

At hougang polyclinic right now! Dearest had a bad headache and he had an appoinment on the injection things. Sigh.

Would be buying all items later. Didn't know Dearest slept at 7 plus in the morning! He actually went out in the early morning to get stingray and sotong! Really sorry for not understanding you!

Rang Dearest for 86 calls this morning! Reached his place and he's still sleeping! Finally knocked at his window and he woke up! Finally!

Thanks so much for buying DKNY watch as my present! Thanks so much! Love you Love you! Baby is sleeping soundly beside me while we were waiting for his queue number to appear. Hehe! Muacks!

You are my all.

2010-11-17T09:45:00.002+08:00

I'm on my way work currently. I'm using my iPhone doing blogging now!

Went over to redhill to meet up with kahhao and co. Really fun! My wish came true! But what I have promise you I'll do it. Because I promised you! Alright went over to a river side and chill kindda fun! Hees! Finally, I'm really really happy! Thank kahhao and ahfo so much!

Home-d next and got bath. Down on bed next. Was Texting with Dearest but he was so long to do a reply so waited and waited till I fall asleep. Last night you reached home about 5am in the morning. I doesn't quite like it. But I can't say much too. As long as you're happy w it. Also I understand what you're trying to say.

Slept and woke up this morning and saw a few text been Whatsapp by Dearest asking what I wish to have for my birthday. Hees! I want nothing from you, my boy. I just want you to be with me and that's satisfied! You've done many for me. I love you.

Post gona end here. And tomorrow gona be the chalet day. Hehe! Awaiting!

Greatest that is Priceless Love

2010-11-15T16:27:00.002+08:00

I'm back home!

Last night been to Bugis with Dearest & Charles. Walking round and round. Sorry to disappoint you Dearest about the clothes you buy for me and have got to bring down to Bugis to change! I'm so sorry and thankful to you. For being so xi xin to buy that clothes for me. Love you!

Ate and back-ed to Dearest home.

Baby woke up in the early morning and had gone to work but he was so late that he had to wait for another boat. Opps! Wake up early next time! Well, I woke up at 11:30am nd got prepared. Off to Hougang Mall for bag search but none that is nice.

Headed to Plaza and saw a pouch kindda nice and get my manicure done. Cost alot. But Baby allowed me to do so. He gave me the permission to do it. If not I wouldn't dare to do it too. Hees!

Look-ed for WeiWei at Redhill and back home now.

Currently blogging and ending soon here.

Won't be meeting baby for tonight as he's on his duty again and he will be resting from tomorrow till Sunday and starting his work on the next Monday! Isn't that sound so shook! Args!

Alright! Will be missing him and ending my post here.

Stay tune for next post ba=) See You!

Photos Uploader!

2010-11-14T16:27:00.007+08:00

Priceless Love.

2010-11-14T15:19:00.005+08:00

Two days of off day. I'm gona have a good good rest. It's a Sunday today and it's currently raining cats & dogs outside!

Supposingly have a meet out with friend that he say wants to have a early celebration with me and wanted to bring me over to Sakae Sushi for bites. I've asked Dearest but he doesn't seems to like. Well, I've to cancel it then. Apology to my friend as I've disappoint him.

Slept till noon and had breakfast cum lunch with Dad and back home. Hopefully the weather will be good and nice later on! I wana get my bag today.

Chalet is drawing closer and closer. Looking so forward towards it. But just seen the weather forecast that it might be raining too. Everyone gona be shagg again. Hees! Happenng in chalet!

Have to go over to Bedok to look for Dearest as he's helping out his uncle shop today. But it's raining to heavy so still considering. If weather is good later on, will be meeting him at Bugis. It had been so long that I last played fishing. I wana have some fun please!

I miss Dearest alot! Yet he away at his uncle shop helping out & I'm at home. Meeting him today! Must! Alright. Shall stop those.

Currently at home using computer and blogging right now. Without Facebook is like losing one thing/net to surf and it's getting boring! No more comments and photos to view! No more friend request! Life's getting boring.

Well, age is growing year and year. Have to surrender. I wana meet Baby today!

Miss miss miss you!

Greatest Love

2010-11-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

Been a month not posting. Was being busy and lazy to do so. Anyway guys, I've deleted my facebook with personal reason. Would not be on facebook anymore. Been with dearest for 2 month plus already. Days are as happy as in the past. But conflicts there's definitely have. But whenever after conflicts we get to know more of each other. But everything still need time. I'm trying hard not to be like the past. Learn from mistake that's important! And learning to look far look in future is partly too.

Life of mine now.

Working and earning money is top point. But saving money must get to second point but still trying hard too. I'm quite a splendid. But more on food alright so it's worth.. That is the reason why people says i'm getting fatter and fatter.

Alright. My birthday is coming already. Got to thanks Dearest for opening the chalet just for me. I really appreciate it. Hope everything goes well that day. I want to spend a good day just to be with you. You're my one and only now. Sorry to disappoint you previously but I told myself to start afresh right from today on. Because I don't wish things that happened last night to get repeated again! Must always remember what you promise me alright! I'm looking forward for each day that is with you!

Gave 36 miss call to Dearest just to wake him up! He's so lik a log! Hehs! Currently he's at his Dinner & Dance night at sentosa. Might be meeting him tomorrow ba.

Dearest, I miss you alot!

Ending my post soon! Have a great night and tomorrow will be a better day for you guys alright! Ohya! Gotta thanks SERENE PAN & ELAINE fir the present you guys gave! Really appreciate! Thanks so much!

Have a good night everyone!

Greatest Love.

2010-10-04T17:50:00.006+08:00

Photos uploaded.

Spending time with dearest these two days though didn't went any places but we do have heart-2-heart talk within both. After chatting, it seems that I found someone is right that actually have the same thinking with me. But things still have to leave it till 3 months later and decide. We're still in the honey moon period.

Currently dearest is on duty till tomorrow morning and he's off for a day. Think not meeting him tomorrow as I'm exhausted. Might not ba.

On the phone now with dearest. End of post. Nights.

Heaven can wait.

2010-09-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

Back on posting. Baby is in his introduction camp right now. Today is the 3rd day of 5 days. Friday night is the night I can see him again and all the way. Waiting patiently for friday.

Get to see him today for less than 30 seconds and his van came. Get a goodbye kiss and off he go. Damn sad but at least we get to see. I'm satisfied.

Got many calls today from different company. But get an interview on friday morning with Staff Hub company. Hopefully I can get this job. 1.5k per month. Hopefully can get.

Zhi Long is not meeting Weiwei on friday night so I guess baby would be just meeting me and bring me go eat. Saturday off and we are gonna sleep till we are enuf. Yes! Dear know me very well. Hehe.

Just got my DBS and POSB card back. Next month would be doing my i/c and passport. Baby ask me do cause he want bring me go out. Hehe. Lol.

Alright. Lazy to post as currently chatting with dear. Post again soon.

bye.

You were the one.

2010-09-14T07:40:00.007+08:00

Back on posting. Seriously got no time to blog. Even if there's time for me is only for sleeping. This few days always with Dearest. Got to work every 3 days and off a day. But surprisingly he brought me his home-cooked food over to my work place and waited for me to end work when I told him that I would be meeting him at my house downstair. Was shocked! But sweet! He brought me to labrador park to had my dinner and home-d next for shower.

Guess what?!! I showered half way and saw a very big cockroach at my basin. Rang baby up and get him help me with this thing. He was very funny. Baby waited for me at my living room and I went to get ready. Headed to lavender to look for Zhilong & Weiwei. Chilled and to Yishun reservoir chill waited for charles to come along. About 3 - 4 am plus headed back home at Hougang. Have a good chat with Baby. Really glad of what he says and his aim.

Slept till next afternoon and Baby cooked mee for me when I say I'm hungry. Thanks! Had my lunch and back to room. Bout 5.30 p.m when to get ready and headed to Church Of The Nativity Of The Blessed Virgin Mary to celebrate the birth of blessed Virgin Mary with his family, his sister and his aunty. His sister big daughter was cute! Alright had dinner together and back to Baby house to get my stuff and to marina square. Met up with Fiona and her boyfriend. The world is so small. Baby know Fiona boyfriend. Jiang qiao. Watched Resident Evil 3D. Was interesting but bit scary.

Headed to Marina Bay chilled with Baby. We talked lots of things with many small kid thing. He is really something to make me laugh. Baby looked shag and home-d next.

Staying at home yesterday the whole day and packed my room and lights off at 12.30 p.m.

Time check:8:05 am.

Gave dear a morning call at 7 a.m. Have a short chat and he went shower. And now he off to jetty for boat and to work.

Would be working later at Parco. Get to meet Baby tonight! Awaiting patiently. He will be going for camp for his job 3D2N. Sad. Won't be able to see him. But he told me if can come out he would be coming over to look for me! That is enough=)

Should get some rest now and to work later=)) Wondering what I will be doing at Parco later when I got enough sleep. I don't want spend the day doing house keeping! Should spend my day eating. Yea~ Wang Wang!

Thats for the past day.

I'm so lucky to have a boyfriend like that. The aim that he got is as what I though of. You'll never failed to be by my side. Being with you, it seems like whatever I do I'm not afraid. I do feel the secure in you and I'm not afraid of anything would come in between. We can't predict the future but as what I have told you. I never though of would we last long but just though of cherishing every moment that I'm with you. You can feel it whenever we met. How I treat you and etc. I know myself that I can do better than the past.

You're simply my love. ILY Johnny Koh Jun Hui.

Thanks for everything.

2010-09-05T23:58:00.005+08:00

Was late for work today. Its like I'm suppose to work at Vivo from 10.30 am - 9.30 pm and guess what? I got a call fro Johnny and he's telling me that is 12.30 pm now! I jump-ed off my bed and got everything ready. Wow~ I'm so damn rushed.

Was so shagg out while working. Got no enough sleep. Got some chat with Jinah and we're so funny. Well, went for my second break. Bought Bubble tea and went out entrance to have some cigarettes and relax. Suddenly someone came up to me and asked me for lighter. I was wondering which idiot asked me for it. Look up and it was Johnny! I was damn super shock la! Haha. Really thank him for coming down lo.

He waited for me for 2 and half hours for me to end work when I don't even know and thought that he went home. Args! KFC for our dinner and home-d.

Reached home downstair to smoke and he ride into the car park and there he goes. He gave me another shock! Really touched but I'm sorry.

And now gotta wait for his text till he finish washing his wife. Lol. Hope to see you tomorrow again. =) I can't expect much anymore. All I want is people to happy. Think positive~

Everything starts with a step 1.

2010-09-05T06:17:00.002+08:00

Suppose to meet Johnny at 8.30 pm at Hougang but I was so late. So cab down over his house downstair. Next to Ang Mo Kio Hub for movie timing. We both was like sited down at a place surfing the timing in my I Pod till got no batt=(

Charles reached and we bought tickets to watch at Pasir Ris E hub. Rush-ed there and meet up with ZhiLong & WeiWei. Catch up with the movie. Lol. To coffee shop to have our supper after show. Talk-ed to WeiWei about things and is like opps! Laughs** On the way to somewhere suddenly it rain and got heavily. Everyone got hit by the rain but I'm not! I'm on jacket. LOL=DD

Headed to Esso station and rested down. Play-ed big 2 with Darlin WeiWei and I'm losing. Zhilong keep helping her. Wth! & Johnny so jialak la. Hahs! Back home next. Working later. Sad=( Hope to see you tomorrow dumb! You're always here with me I know. Thanks for WeiWei blessing.

Waiting for his call after his shower. I'm gonna stand the whole day tomorrow!

Glad.

2010-09-04T18:48:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since I last blog. Do not know if this post gona be long?

Alright been working everyday and having lots of outing in the night with Johnny, WeiWei, ZhiLong and Charles. Many things had happen within these few days. I've been like going thru all this. But I'm not alone. Sometimes I really do feel exhausted of all things that had happened. But I know I have to do it. Well, things are clear and got a conclusion in the end.

Well last night didn't expect fight will started. Whatsmore I see something very weird is that you got hit and your friends were standing at the stairs seeing. And not running up to you. But fights is not planned. Thats it.

Bathing soon and going Hougang meet Johnny first.

Bye.

Once again.

2010-08-23T22:46:00.006+08:00

Been to:

Keppel Bay for relaxing.

Marina Barage for heart-2-heart talk.

Geylang for Soy bean curd.

Yishun Reservoir for Sun Rise.

First thing I want to say that I'm really noob la. Firstly, I do not know how to sit this friend vehicle. Secondly, never been to those places and thirdly like never sit sun rise before.

Had a heart-2-heart chat with this friend. Didn't expect he told me so much but was really suffering in the past. Glad that now is fine=) Had some lames jokes and weird question between the conversation. Lol.

Finally get to see proper sunrise and its really beautiful. You can see it above. Yes that it is. Capturing is not that nice w/o those feeling. Experience yourself people. Back home next slept for 3 hours and off to work. Its monday and there goes the monday blues. Not many customer and eye is really shutting down. But still managed to go thru it.

Worked ended and accompanied a friend for dinner and back home. Kind of tired. Lights off at 1am. Nights.

Night out.

2010-08-21T20:07:00.008+08:00

Yesterday been to:

Ion to Work.

Tampines for Dinner @ Mr Prata .

E Hub to watch The Phua Chu Kang midnight movie.

Void Deck to had our Supper & Slack.

Changi Park to watch Sun Rise & Planes.

Home-d last.

Went out over the night with my friend. We both talk many things and jokes a lot. & this friend keeps lying to me non-stop. Telling me things that is impossible. Tricking me. Lol.

It's been so long that I last went night out. Really very fun though I may offense someone. But I need to be happy. As I don't feel really happy over the days that I've past. I've threw all my secrets out and really really have a good chat with this friend. I really really want to thank you for those and I appreciate it. Somehow I do look like stupid or noob but people knows me.

Didn't get to see sunrise as morning was so cloudy with some drizzling. But I manage-d to watch over the ocean as well as the planes. I feel lots of calm, peace and comforting. I really got to thanks this friend a lot.

This early got a little minor accident. I almost fall off the vehicle. Almost hit a red car in front. Is like very near. Last minutes had a brake and I really fall off this vehicle. But my friend got hurt. So worried. But the vehicle is like break the heart. Really worried when this friend goes back. Once got home, I fell a 2 hours sleep and to work and now I'm home blogging. The ever first minor accident. But is weird that I'm not so afraid. But worried for my friend. -.-?

I appreciated the night. Really thanks a lot.

As for you, I've really no comment for you anymore. This time round it happen again. Confirming with you yet you told me should be. What should I really do for you. I'm really changing here but is like you don't know. I thought everything will goes well but you were like playing with my hopes. You was confirmed with me the previous night and now is should be? Can you tell me what should I do then you can really be happy? You dislike me to be like this, now I'm changing but you just don't seems to be happy. I really have got no idea of what you really want me to be? I need to be happy. I need to relieve stress. I've got a bundle of things in my heart. I need to let go of it so that I can breathe well. You got it? It will never fail that I always tears for you.

2010-08-20T20:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went over to Ion for training and next to Bishan to look for Shirley for some somethings. To Bugis next with Han Long for lunch cum dinner. Arcade next to play fish and won 100. Went around to all line shop and jokes. Lol.

Today went to work and got my commission. So great. Well, unknown people from JeanYip came in to talk to me about his ex girlfriend when I did not ask? Lol. Standing in my shop for more than 30 minutes. Is lik wthell. Alright. Went break to have my lunch and bought lunch for that Armani. Lol.

Home next. May be going to have dinner at tampines with my friend later.

I miss you a lot. How I hope you gona give me a hug tomorrow night once you get to see me when you're back.

Solo.

2010-08-18T11:20:00.003+08:00

Currently still bit sleepy with eye half dead. I'm exhausted. Got to adapt into from next month onwards.

Would be at parco later on again and I'll be closing alone today. Yes, I've the confident to do it! Partnering with Josephine later till 4.30 pm. Oh~

I'm trying very hard here but I'm just having a little wondering that would you give up on me? I'm sorry to have negatives thoughts again but just a little alright? I will still be into what I'm doing.

I will time myself to change within . . .

No comment.

2010-08-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

You've told me to prove you that I can change and I can only be yours. I said I will prove you. But could you please prove me that you can only be mine also? & don't break the golden rules of guys?

Today I do not wish to say much here. Although I miss you but that I could only see things I do not wish to see. I feel sad. But I got no comment.

To parco today and things there goes well for me. But accidentally I broke a 50ml of essential oil that costs 80 bucks. I'm going to pay for it. But its okay for me. I said I'll make the day wonderful.

My supervisor told me that and I'm laughing for it. & he said, "You're going to pay for it yet you're still happy and laughing here." He gave me a weird face too. Haha!

I felt weird to myself also. Things had dropped and broke. & its me who broke it so I'm going to responsible. No point feeling so angry and complaining like a loser. Got it?

Me: Yes I got,

I told myself.

3 main points.

2010-08-16T22:16:00.003+08:00

To that unknown person who tagged me. Time will tell everything. I've made up my mind. Once I say I'll prove, I'll prove to that person. We'll see.

Anger = Temper = Attitude

I'm miss you lots today but I know I can't text you for the time being. Until this day that I'm ready to text you, I'll do.

Realize that our neo-print that we once took together were in my pouch. Took it out from it an bring it along with me wherever I go. I do feel sad while looking at it and also there's a thought that came in mind that I have never had it before.

Really miss so much when we were together. I failed to cherish it and neither do I change it. So disappointed on myself.

-Think positive.

-Think of solutions that suit to the negatives.

-Make the everyday wonderful

I'll still look into these three sentence that a friend told me. This friend speak different from others. Taught me things and told me about the experienced this friend had before and once a jerk. But that look positive and make everyday a wonderful. Vent anger in a different by exercising or something.

My friend: Thanks a lot to talk things out for me. You did taught me and I'm really thinking into it. But just that mind mapping is kind of complicated to write but I'll do it in mind. I thank you and Uncle Sebastian that taught me things.

-Calm

-Think

-Change to good

People that I've talk to, I'm changing for the sake of myself and not for somebody. Its for the better in future or etc. Don't say I'm stubborn alright. You will know me people.

Randomly

2010-08-15T11:58:00.007+08:00

You texted me that out of suddenly and leaving me all in questioning. You did not even gave us a chance to sit down and talk things out. I felt unfair. Are you doing the right thing? I don't know. Though I have to let it go but I really don't understand it. We were okay on that day but now is so different. Its been 1 year. Though is not so long but 1 year feeling that I had for you isn't fake. But just a few days days less than a week, you said you've no longer feelings there. Are you faking me?

Now what I know about you is that you're not facing it. I felt kind of disappointed on you. I'm trying my very best to change it and you never give a chance. I knew you had given me many chances. But this time round that I had, I'm cherishing it. You never gave me the proper chance when you say you gave me.

You're avoiding by not replying my text. I ringed you up on the friday night. I was at Takashimaya. I wanted to tell you that I wanted to bring you there to have meals with the voucher that I currently had as there's many good meals. But I've got no response from you. I thought for a moment why aren't you replying. You may be tired and sleeping currently so I stopped all the callings and texting. But just the next day, I knew you got work in the morning as you told me before. But I did not receive anything from you too. I had a terrible sleep that night. I kept waking up in the middle of the night and looking at my phone, but saw nothing. This kept repeated the whole night till the next morning. I still got nothing from you. I told myself maybe you need times and ask myself not to think negatives things. But still, nothing.

Since yesterday I felt something is wrong. But I can't text you much because I told myself you might need time. But while time passes minutes by minutes, hours by hours. I got afraid. Because feelings telling me that you may lost the feeling. & now should I say I'm bingo? I didn't expect so much. I know you can't feel and see I'm changing.

But I'll prove you.

I want to let you know, I had never felt regret being with you. If time would turn back to the beginning. I'll still choose you instead of letting you go. Because I know myself I don't think I'm wrong to choose you right from the beginning.

I know no point getting the reason nor answer from you because even if I got an answer I'll still have to let it go and move on with my days. The things I got for you, you can keep it as a memory that we once had together. Things that you have with me, I will return it to you. But please leave it with me for a few days alright? I just want to hug your bear just a few days will do. You can get it back when you're free. I know you wouldn't want to see me. just leave me a text telling me you're free and want to get your things. I'll leave my keys at the same place for you to get back. Don't worry you won't get to see me.

You were the best I have seen. Must take care okay. Best wishes.

Its sometime now.

2010-08-14T15:18:00.002+08:00

Busying with my work this few days:)

Partnering with different is so great. Talk-ed a lot and we eat a lot. Especially Elaine. Hah!

Alright I've many to say here but its not convenience. Come and ask me if you want to know. But only some people that is close to me know but not people that is unknown=)

Just a sentence that I'm happy with what my life is.

End.

Insane . Severe Ties

2010-08-09T16:33:00.003+08:00

You were once my strength that very strong that held me up high.

Things had just happened and strength that I have, had gone. I got no strength to walk. Were dragging myself to walk towards & not stopping down. Everything had pull me down.

A hole in your bear which represent the hole in your heart. I wanted to try all my heart to make it mended. & you told me this sentence, " a hole is already a hole". This sentence had told me no matter how hard I try to mend it up its still always a hole.

It just simply think that what I do also the same thing.

Maybe you hadn't noticed.

But without you, I'm not really showing what I'm truly feeling. I'm unsure of my emotions lately. When I smile, I don't know whether I'm really happy or not. It's confusing. & I hate this situation right now. I'm in an unclear state of emotions. & I really need to get my stand back. & I need to grab a hold of myself.

Even right now,

As I'm posting. I don't have an idea what I really want to post. My emotions are running wild. I used to be able to post continuously & not stop to think about what to post. But now, for every sentence, I have to stop. & think about, what I really wanna type.

I don't like this. Please, end this.

Now that I'm not okay with your group of friends & wont mixed with them anymore. They just think Im insane. Well, its okay with me if they think I'm insane. The relations with them ended.

I'm gonna severe ties with you or as well as them from today onwards.

090810.1700

Severe ties

2010-08-02T05:04:00.004+08:00

Actually, it really doesn't matter to me anymore. I can see. While you were sick, people that around you were with you and also taking care of you. Glad to see that and as what I've expected.

Thanking you for giving the courage to me to face the reality,. Though I have to severe ties with you, I guess I have to be willing to do so. You have told me once as you used to scold me that I'm a whatever and things that you have messenger me and get me hell up, way too far, too much. I was really fed-up and got a huge hurt whenever you say that. But people around told me and even ordered me that to be cheer up and not to think much. I got my own pride so as you do. I'm a girl that needed respect from others so as you do too. Though I'm too much but I did respect you as a boy/men, you know it yourself well.

No one has ever talked to you regarding of this relationship. I can't make it all blame on you. Partly were my fault for not knowing what am I doing and being hell over-sensitive about you. I do not know which way should I put it. Loves was increasing everyday that I use-d to be with you but it was in a wrong way, a wrong matter.

Well, after all I know what were my mistake. I will get myself to learn from there. I know there is not just one that I have to learn from. But I thanked you for teaching me much.

No more of saying about you and me, make it as this the last post of us or maybe you.

Ps: Drink more water and not drinking. Eat more as you getting thinner and thinner. Get more rest, if not sick is going up to you again. You hate it too.

Best wishes to you, ~~my friend~~ stranger/Shawn.T.c.x

-Ended-

Title-less

2010-08-01T12:09:00.004+08:00

Having a heart-to-heart chat with Kah Hao last night. He'd told me lot of of things. So am I. My heart got burst out in words and felt so much better than before. Avoiding the reality is so difficult. Can't realise it that no matter what am doing, things will turn back to it reality. Its like a clock that turn around and around. At the end of the destination I've still have to face it. No matter what.

I thought I had it all,
I was Terribly wrong.

Please know that,
I've never been better off, without you. Times and everything without you. Isn't great nor good. Without you, I can't seemed to find my motivational quotes, Without you, many things goes wrong. I have an unstable flow of moods. I don't want this. I have really been wondering & thinking, what had happened and causes this break-ups. I just can't seemed to find out why. I just can't.

I'm sorry.

Don't ever think it's so gonna happen for me to get over you so soon.

2010-07-31T00:29:00.002+08:00

Reality always hit you all the time.

It just depends on how you react and take them on. It has always been true that I've stayed loyal to listening to what you gona say when you need someone to talk to. You've never tell me a single thing before, you've never pushed the blame to me before. You make it sound like words you said could be done so easily.

Do you think it'd be so easy to get over you? To forget all those memories we once had. I've never thought the both of us would have ended. I guess, I was first priority when it comes to looking for someone to talk to. But I've never thought, there came a female, when it slowly became that you both became the best of the best friends, & then soon, you started finding out things about me. I didn't even know why. You should have known, our status between each other between me and him. You gotta know, if you're fond of someone, every single thing that you've done with the person, it'll affect you someway. Either in a sense of happiness, or a hit-back by reality.

Please do try to understand, girls also have feelings also. It doesn't mean, I might be a girl, & I have a stronger appearance on the outside, would actually mean that I'm stronger on the inside. If you've been thinking that way, you're wrong. I cried, on that night that I asked to severe ties with you. I don't know whether you'll feel the same way as I do. But I guess, it doesn't really matters to you now already.

I've just made a clean swipe between the both of us. & I'm sure you'll be better off without me. I need a break from all these hit-backs by reality. It's really wearing me off thin. I've tried to patch things up with you. But in the end, it gets destroyed and it pushed me hard down into the ground. I've been trying, trying to find someone to talk to. Hoping it'd give me the feeling, of allowing me to feel that it's you. To let me pretend that I'm talking to you, and also talking about you. It doesn't feel like you, not even a single little bit.

I was hoping so much, within the few days, I'd receive a text from you. But I didn't. & I guess, for now. I wouldn't want to receive. Like I said, for this short period of time. Let me grab a hold of myself. I'm seriously losing control. My patience has been wearing thin already, way too thin for me to handle.

Give me these few days to grab a hold on regain consciousness of my inner-self. I misses talking happy words with you so much. Where every single message would make me smile whether I'm in public or at home. It might just be embarrassing to look @ my phone & smile like as if I'm doing something stupid. It used to be like this, but it's not coming back again. I know it's not. As long as I'm not first priority, it's never. But things are not the same anymore. I feel, that you've slowly been taking me for granted. Like as if, you just met me, and I'm someone annoying. Perhaps you didn't know, but it's hurting receiving treatments like this from you.

I had to put on a front, a happy/brave front when I'm out of my house. I don't allow others to see how I'm feeling. Neither do I let them know that I'm not feeling myself. Unless it's @ the peak of my emotions. & I can't tolerate it anymore. & I might just be bursting into tears anytime. None of my listening ears now feels like you. They could never make me feel okay after a period of texting or talking to each other. They can't. It's not easy for me getting over you. It's not.

After all these memories we've got through. For approximately 1 years, we've been at strangers, at least. & now, you're asking me to let go of you. It might appear easy for you. But it's not for me.

Thinking out louddd

2010-07-30T18:08:00.001+08:00

What's actually love

When everything has been disclosed already, please don't blame for what I wanted for the best for you. Sorry that I lied. I didn't mean to. But I had to do this, just to make sure you're living the best of your life. I only want nothing, but the best of you. Maybe one day, when I'm finally gone, you'll understand why I did so much for you. Because I only wanted you to be happy. Love is not about how much you can take, but how much you can give, and receive at the same time. & about how much you can give, but not ask for anything much in return. That's love.

But I was wrong at it.

One day, if only there'll still be this one day. When we really get back to how we used to be. To talk to each other like as if we were siblings. I would look back to today, and smile to myself. & I know everything did worked out well.

Emotionally unwell

Someone said, 'There're so many other fishes in the sea, so many other trees in the forest, but why did you have to choose the one?' I replied, 'Because he's the one that stands out, the one that caught my attention.'

She knows you don't miss her anymore.

She knows you've gotten over her.

She knows, it has all ended.

She knows, you're carrying on with life.

She knows, things can never be the same again.

She knows, everything now is about you.

She knows, she's falling deeper for you.

She knows, she loves you.

Posts about you

If only I could find a song that truly represents how I feel and what I wanna say, I'll dedicate to you, & maybe even sing it to you to let you know and understand.

No matter how long people are gonna wait,

It's never gonna be enough. No longer how much effort they put in for you, you'll never be satisfied enough.

True emotions are to be felt by the heart, not through visual or verbal actions.

No matter how many times I tried to run away to avoid the truth, I'll still have to come t realise that there's still things left undone for me

End

2010-07-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Even if I'm damn f.king angry with you. With how vulgar you scold me, how you want me to lose face. I still love you. Though this seems ro ma but I still have to say. But dont worry loving you is one thing but don interrupt your life is another thing.
So I decided not to interrupt your life since I'm already irritate you.
And so please do not return me my phone. As holding onto my phone just simply wanting to text you.
I don't want threw a nuisance in front of you anymore. My attitude sucks I know
Thats why previously you always wanted to say break And now is my turn As I got no attn from you
since its I mentions that's why you feel nothing and so I understand bout it I don know if you had it planned or etc
but just one last sentence I love you for who you are & what you are.
also
I wish to see you happier than before
I know you would think all craps I understand I won't say much anymore
take care. ILOVEYOU for who you are and what you are. No matter what the love will still be thr. But not interrupting your life is another thing so pls don put it as one. I'll not be in your life for again..

Love.

2010-07-13T14:20:00.002+08:00

Currently @ Home. Waiting for reply from them.

Going plaza with dad later on for shopping at NTUC. HAHA!

Anyway looking forward to Loves to be back.

Loves you my dear.

The love that we've maintain to till today and further after.

2010-07-05T11:31:00.003+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY 11TH ANNIVERSARY TO YOU,
SHAWN TENG CHONG XUN

We've been through all ups & downs but our love that we've for both is always there.

Loves you my Dear.

Alright, basically Saturday was working half day and headed down sentosa with Loves. Half kindda fun lo. Down to redhill have dinner and back to Loves house.

Sunday, down to Cine and Plaza Sing. Back home next.

Currently working and got lot of stuff to do. Wthell! As so that's what they say Monday Blues.

Alright. Post for today. Take care guys!

Problematic;

2010-07-03T09:44:00.002+08:00

Do we call ourselves special from other partners?

I felt that we are so much different form them but that we're not special. When you're not around I don't get anything from you.

I don't feel you around me.

I'm missing you;

2010-07-01T17:26:00.001+08:00

I miss you that's why I text you.
I angry you because I worry bout you.
..... .....
My heart is on you and I loves you so.

Finally made it;

2010-06-29T10:49:00.003+08:00

Tell me what do you see when you are looking at me.
On a mission to be, what im destined to be.
I’ve done been through the pain and the sorrow the struggle is nothing but love.
I’m a soldier a rider a ghetto survivor and all the above.

Really what do you see when you are looking at me?
See me coming from nothing to me living my dreams?
I'd been to the bottom, I'd suffered a lot and I deserve to be rich.
Heading straight to the top look how i rep for the block and look how i rep for the hood,
but I get nothing but love.
That i come through the hood getting this fortunate fate, why leave that gold on this chain?
The new bases are white call them John Mcain how the hell could you stop me?
Why in the world would you try?
I go hard forever that's just how I'm designed that's just how I was built.
See that look I'm in my eyes you take all of this from me and I'm still gona survive.
You get truth from me but these rappers gona lie.
I'm a part of these streets till the day that I die,
I way hotter than hatters glad that I finally done made it.
Take a look and you can tell that I am destined for greatness.

Never let go;

2010-06-28T17:59:00.000+08:00

We drive tonight, and you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever.

The time flies by, with the sound of your voice. Its close to paradise, with the end surely near.
And if I could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go.
As we round the corner to your house, you turned to me and said, "I'll be going through withdrawal of you for this one night we have spent."
and, I want to speak these words but I guess I'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from.

I don't want to speak these words. 'Cause I don't want to make things any worse.

Why does tonight, have to end? Why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. We'll skip the goodbyes.
If I had it my way, I'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and I.

I don't want to speak these words. 'Cause I don't want to make things any worse.

Peace;

2010-06-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

Work was smooth today but kind of tired. As I'm so sleepy!! Alright work finally end and went home. Saw Wesley at plaza. We wanted to take cab but ended up take bus and bus came before cab is here. His leg was wrapped. Oh dear..Hope he's well and he is in army now. Haha! Meet up soon my brother together with JJ and the rest. Hehs=) Reach-ed home and pass mum the money and down to eat dinner. Saw SiWei and his girlfriend. Not bad ah his girlfriend. Home-d next and bathe. sleepinggggg timeeeee nowwwwww!!!!!!

Nights.

2010-06-25T18:46:00.000+08:00

Your love is all I think about;

2010-06-21T17:03:00.008+08:00

First day of the week again. Damn boring. But good as I touches my pending files already. As it's been a week not calling already if things found out sure get scolded. Anyway things goes well too. Loves coming over to my house ohh!! HAHA. Miss him so much la.

Anyway Dear I LOVE YOU x1000000000!!

Photos uploaded are yesterday and and on the saturday. =)

Fantasy that can't be predicted;

2010-06-18T18:26:00.012+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU SHAWN TENG CHONG XUN !

Currently at Loves house while Loves is over at east coast with his friend.

Have not been posting over the past few days due to busy and tiring. So decided to post today since today is my off day. Working is going smooth now and thn. But just that too busy enough to do other thing. Handling over a thing myself you see. Been so tiring all days since started this job as a full time. So tiring la.

Alright, had comflicts with loves past few days also. But everything is fine now. All thanks to that 2 good friend la. SHENALEE & TENGCHONGYAO!

Thursday took Leave as visiting my Sister, after visiting, suppose to meet up with Loves but yet comflicts again till so worst la. Also thanks to that 2 goods friends things went well again. Had Karate Kid on that day. The show is so damn power la!! Rated 5/5! Is a MUST to watch! Home next.

Friday went down to Plaza Sing to look for them and Dylan wanted to go my house over night and ring up his mother. She agreed and he's happy la. Went back to chill down and back to Redhill to waited for Kahhao and Co. Suddenly things happen and that was fast la. Ring up somebody for precaution and lik what is this sia. Talking nicely and stuff ended up like this. Dont take things for granted pls. Thanks.

Saturday which is yesterday. worked half day and is suppose to be half day la. Loves and Dylan came over to fetch me and headed down to Plaza Sing. Dine-d in over at Just Acia and we all like too full ended up all in toilets=)) Aftermath, down to Arcade to catch fish time. Dylan play all by his own and he caught 3 shark fish sia and lots of sting ray man!! WELL DONE! As for loves he won alots too! Added up we got bout 5 hundred plus token. We kept it there for next time la! =DD Have lotsa fun this week.

Sunday for today and is Loves house. Gona go over to Jurong Point Icing Room to make a cake for him, and that is always what I wanted to do! But gona wait for Loves to be back first. Having steamboat tonight I guess. Is lik Happy Family? HAPPY!!!

Uploaded photos are all past photos below=)

-THE END-

No Appetite;

2010-06-12T18:35:00.002+08:00

Have been 2 days including today not eating already. Working is my point of view now. I've too work hard. As so that I won't be able to think of those past.

I must make it by tomorrow.

2010-06-11T22:14:00.002+08:00

Didn't eat for the whole. Currently tempting to eat bbq chicken but too bad don't have. I should open a bbq too maybe next month? But its just a small one. Hehheh. I realise Chix wing seem to be my favourite food eh. HAHA=D

Thanks swollen eye=) Heh Heh.

A Good Day;

2010-06-07T12:08:00.003+08:00

Had Nightmares on elm street on the Saturday Evening with Loves, YaoYao, ChiaHao, Kahhwee & Roger. I was damn terrified! My eye were closing for 3/4 of the movies. Can you imagine it? I'm lik wasting Loves money to watch. Hee~~ People, remember do not fall asleep =D

Was a Sunday yesterday. Went down to Bugis for shopping with Loves siblings including Dylan. He was like so happy to go out with us.

Okays. Basically just a short post for here. Train-ed down to Bugis. Had our breakfast and lunch together at Qi Ji. Next, walk-ed into street to shop and look. Saw a tank top was not bad and bought it when loves says it was nice too. Meet up with AhJin all and to Virtual Land. Loves went to play the fishing games and I accompanied Dylan. While the rest play-ed their own games.

Halfway through Loves brought me over to control station to meet up with his friends. Alex, Elisha and the rest. Headed down to Cine leisure and had some snacks at Suki Sushi. Was like quite funny over there with Loves and Alex trying to make each other with the Wasabi. HAHA=DD

Next, walk-ed over to Plaza sing and Loves started his fishing game again. Aftermath, went to meet Kahhao and Co and home-d next.

Having a great talk with Loves during last night. And we cook-ed cambelle soup to drink too. HAHA=DD

LOVES YOU DEAR!! WO AI NI OH.

Pictures shall post the next time when I found a cable first. =) Stay-ed tune guys!

Irreplaceable;

2010-06-01T23:55:00.006+08:00

Second by second... minute by minute...hour by hour... day by day...week by week...month by month. Break and patch...Break and patch.

As what I'm trying to refer above was that they've been thru so long so long and the story between them had ended.

The lady was wondering if the man really happy for knowing the ending that had already ended or the man is actually sad about it.

Though, the lady was wrong but she was helping a friend with no motive behind. But the man was too angry and called off. The lady knows that the man was jealous and was rush to called off.

But the lady won't be apology to the man of hers because the lady know it was her fault doing those. Even saying a sorry won't helps. As the lady have been saying a million sorry to the man whenever she did wrong.

Sorry doesn't mean you know you're wrong and will mend it back. Saying sorry was just a word because after saying it, you will still do the wrong again and again.

This is the reason why the lady will not be saying sorry. She hopes the man that she love will be happy. She won't bargain for more anymore after the story ended. The lady won't be disturbing the man again.

She will put those wonderful day in her story as a beautiful and great memories . . .

Take note;

2010-06-01T14:06:00.001+08:00

Phone spoiled.

Replace me;

2010-05-30T00:32:00.004+08:00

People,

Pls kindly replace sadedmiko@hotmail.com to julie.tle@hotmail.com.

Due to some spammer in my hotmail that have send you guys some weird messages that have a virus on it.

So to prevent it to appear in your inbox and make your com hang, please kindly add or replace that old email to this new email, julie.tle@hotmail.com.

Thanks a million!

2010-05-26T15:59:00.002+08:00

In every behaviour behind, there is always a cry for help.

Chill~

2010-05-26T15:27:00.005+08:00

Went chilling on the monday with old friends at delta bridge. Was kind of bored so photographer starts taking pictures of no meanings. LOL=D *That is me!

Talking, walking, playing, scolding, beating all have at there. Heh. Opps! I'm not the one who beats okays=) Also, we waited for ChiaHsao and roger to be there. There they are reached. All weird jokles from ChiaHao makes me tear laugh. Its been so long that I tears laugh already oh~

Pictures that Photographer, Miko tooks:

What do you think?

2010-05-25T11:41:00.001+08:00

If others are often more
foolish or wise than you think,
are you often more
foolish or wise than you think?

It's a new week again;

2010-05-24T17:42:00.004+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY 8th BIRTHDAY TO LOVES' BROTHER,
DYLAN TENG CHONG MING.

Was Dylan birthday today and had celebrated last night together with his family. He was so much happy till he keep getting scolded. HAHA=DD Dylan you gotta behave well okays. Must be a good boy at home rather than always playing and disturbing people. Wake up already la! HAHA=DD Anyway wish your day goes well everyday especially TODAY!

Nothing.

2010-05-18T22:21:00.004+08:00

-No surprise
-No fetch
-No notice

All you know is to give in. Is this all I want?

What am I to you? I don't seem the one that you can see importantly.

You can just say don't come and just go out. You can just go out without telling. You can just ton and no need go home also without telling. What am I to you? Tell me can not?

I don't want to be the one always caring and concerning you only. I'm like the only one that showing you something. What bout you? I get nothing. I just get nothing.

From now on, I won't touch a single things of you. Which mean totally freedom is yours.
This is all I can do now.

Its time.

2010-05-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really can't stand you with your attitude. I've been trying so tell you to change your attitude but I simply can't. Even my good friend wanted to tell you too but also can't speak out. I thought you've a very good patient or even good character but we're wrong. I can say like I've seen your real character. Not as good as mine. I really hope you can change la. Hope so la. If not how am I going to bear for it for life?

Better Day I See

2010-05-17T11:17:00.003+08:00

Slept over at Loves house on the Saturday Night. And have to wake early on the Sunday. Got prepare-d and everything and went down together with Loves Mum and Brother to the bus-stop opposite to wait for Kahhao's parents to drive over to fetch us. Reach-ed and over to Telok Blangah Rise there which is Loves's uncle house as his grand daughter man yue. Reach-ed and have some food fill-ed up in my stomach. WuuHuu~! Nice food okays. Mee siam siam. LOL-.- Stay-ed a bit longer and off we go home. Kah hao and the rest went seperately as Loves and I went to my home. Loves mum gave us 4 facial mask for us to do. Shook mans!!! HAHA=D

Reach-ed home. Got my table stuff packed and had a good bath before putting on to our mask. Aftermath, had dinner and slept at 9 pm plus till the next morning and off to work today=))

Currently working and can't post much anymore as gotta call customer=( Post again soon ya=))

Take care peeps!

I'm missing you;

2010-05-15T09:53:00.006+08:00

Some photos to be uploaded.

So freak out

2010-05-10T14:40:00.001+08:00

Currently working and I'm so damn bored till I'm going to sleep soon. I've finish calling all my 87 Pending and Flow backs. Also, I've done calling all the agents Ms Jobs. So what should I do now? Help-ed up Bank Of China to call their Pending, ended up all done. Is like what the hell please. Courier is like always last minutes. Whats more its only like 2,3,4 or 5 customers only. Args! Its like so damn boring. And I'm so cold still. Args!!!
I'm going crazy soon if this goes on everyday!

2010-05-07T15:50:00.004+08:00

I just want to be.

2010-05-07T15:08:00.001+08:00

I really wish to let go. But why can't I just be that selfish? Am I wrong to be selfish. Must I share it with others? Who will be the next. Tell Me! I need you now my brother, to share my problem with. But I need you even more. I'm scare of you. I'm afraid of you. I do not know why am I like that. I just want to be selfish.

Hoping once again

2010-05-05T10:27:00.007+08:00

Photos continue-d on the previous posts ya. ENJOY!!!

Unstable.

2010-05-04T11:27:00.001+08:00

How I wish you can pay more attention on me.

Because I don't wish to be the one that is always waiting and waiting.

Impossible had became possible.

2010-05-03T14:06:00.005+08:00

Alright. Basically just a short post for 2 days.

Friday was having GMG Rampage at East Coast resorts. Didn't over night there because there's another program in the midnight which is KahHaos' advance birthday celebration. So was having great time playing some funny & interesting games at there. Like tongue twister, boat sinking and actions for music lyrics. Wow though is a little games but overall is was fun and exciting with people there playing together! Hoping there would be one more? HehHeh.
Bout 12 am plus, Pirs and I cab-ed down to Bugis Top One to look for them. Was like quite a number of people there. At first I thought I won't be knowing a few people there. But surprisingly I knew all. Hehs. Though was kind of bit bored cause I'm like not singing there but friends there are fun and interesting too! Its been so long for not gathering together as one. Happy for the day=)

Pictures are uploaded. Not much but interesting!

Can't imagine it. Hate It.

2010-04-24T12:26:00.004+08:00

Last night was a good good night. Some overdue pictured uploaded. Making my blog alive.

Also, I'll cherish everything this time round. I love you my Boyfriend.

** Anyway can I ask you people a question?
When you guys are out do you all really like to see unreasonable attitude?
I guess no right. But I just cant stand it. All I will do now is to bear with it if not...
Cant say it now. Its not the time. Super Frustrated. Looking high of itself. WTH!

No matter what

2010-04-22T23:53:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow will be the answer day. I know what will be the answer but I'll still wait.

It's gonna be the same word again.

2010-04-21T13:51:00.010+08:00

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every detail while you can't seem to remember at all.

I'm selfish and unreasonable. I know what's the reason for having this type of attitude. But no point saying out.

All I really wish is you just to be happy. I don't bargain for more. If you think this way you feel better that will do. Not much anymore. You may think that why am I so stupid saying all this thing here when already no point and its useless. But these are what i want to say out.

What you gonna think next I don't know. You may scold me or etc. Nvm.

I know sorry can't settle everything but still the same word I'm going to say.

I'm sorry.

Sorry is the only thing I can say to you I guess.

Keys will be at the same place on Friday Night.
This would be my last chance.

I chose to give up

2010-04-20T12:39:00.004+08:00

Ya I love you but how I love you is the wrong matter. So even if we continue in the relationship you'll still suffer. So just do it like you say.
I wont ask for any other things from you anymore. Don't worry.
Though I feel damn so fcuk up when I look into your face book asking other girl for msn to add up when you know that girl,
I still damn fcuking jealous. I'm selfish as what you want me to be at first. I can't share anything with other people.
I know you know me well. So forget everything that what we are now. That's the best way.

I know you'll say I'm trying to act strong and etc. As to be frank, I'm weak. I don't deny that. But for what you're gonna say me next, I won't mind anything anymore.
Just one sentence, as long as you're happy. Anything will do.

Smiles will make me smile too. But all I'm scare about is all scoldings from you.
All I can say is to Take care.
You'll get have a better one.

Goodbye.

2010-04-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

It's not the first time you say will fetch me. Count it by yourself.

Its not the first time.

Having you ard is a miracle in my life.

2010-04-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

Back on posting today.

Its a Saturday today and tomorrow is off for work=) Will be going out with Loves to have our sweet outing. Finally we both can have a day out together. Because we're always busying working. I'm working from morning till evening and he's working from evening till midnight. Can even go out isn't it?

SAKUE TOMORROW! Okays?!

I'm craving for so many dresses nowadays. Dresses all blog shop from . They are quite fantastic you see. I do not know which to buy man. Still looking forward to my pay day. Still got 10 ++ Days. =(

Alright anyway Loves is coming over later and he's buying Mac for me. WuuHuu~!

Post for today ya.

ps: ILOVEYOUMANYMANY

Why can't I have it too?

2010-04-05T22:58:00.004+08:00

I am so much envy on some other girls that their boyf would gave them surprise w/o they knowing. Lik fetching their girlf from work? So romantic & sweet.

but why can't I have this too.

I felt myself like a fool whenever I thought he would just simply pop out in front of me when I really don't know anything.

I cant put so much hope on what I hoping you to do too. Because you'll never never give me surprise . . .

Ps: Having such a fuck day on today! Damn Fucking Day!!

It would never happen again.

2010-04-02T17:26:00.003+08:00

Its a Good Friday today & finally got a OFF day till Sunday and Monday back to work. I can simply relax already. WuuHuu~!

Got no submission yesterday. So ended work early and decided to watch movie at The Cathay and booked tickets on net. When In Rome!! Rated 5/5. Worth to watch! Went over to Plaza to change something and bus-ed down to The Cathay. Headed to Loof for some drinks and relaxing after watching and cab-ed home.

Loves have been coming over my house these few days then is like good la! Haha=))

Hope auntie wont mind about it. Loves is coming later after his work too. =DD

Anyway where will we be going on the Sunday and Monday?? SAKUE
PLEASE DEAR!!!

Haha. Post for today:)

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2010-03-29T22:44:00.001+08:00

I miss you so . .

How many time have I tears down just for you. Do you even know?